Around September last year, I started reading a book called "Radical Collaboration", which deals with self-awareness and defensiveness in teamwork (and just being with people in general). It has several "testers" to gauge your defensiveness and also your "hot buttons". I was unpleasantly shocked by how defensive I was and how many things I get upset about. … Continue reading In the process of being less defensive, I stopped talking.
Confession makes me uncomfortable. It's not that I'm afraid to tell God what I've done wrong, and failed to do right (I'm pretty sure God has a handle on my failures), but that the word just makes me squirm. Confession. It sends waves of panic and paranoia down my body and my overactive conscience starts to feel guilty. … Continue reading Squirmy Lenten Thoughts
Tonight during my usual reflect-on-and-try-to-make-sense-of-my-life time of the evening, I remembered a scar on my stomach. It's about 3 inches long and nearly a centimeter high - you would think I wouldn't forget about it. I'm painfully aware of it during swimsuit season and I used to be quite self-conscious about it as I was getting to know … Continue reading Scars
Yesterday morning I set out to walk the labyrinth that sits out behind my church. I picked up my favorite "walking rock" from the pile of gravel (it helps me focus to have something in my hand) and took the first step onto the path. It was a beautiful morning, with the sun streaming through the trees, … Continue reading What does it mean to trust God?
This weekend I journeyed to an adventurous and lively festival known as Wild Goose. In Celtic Spirituality, the Holy Spirit is represented not as a peaceful dove, but a wild goose. And my oh my, did we have a wild and crazy time! There was dancing and body painting, fiery speakers and art everywhere. One of my favorite … Continue reading A Ruckus Rumpus Sort of Worship
This morning I found myself struggling to pray. It occurred to me that I haven't really prayed in a while. I mean, I talk to God about all sorts of things, quite often in fact. But today I felt like I needed (or wanted) to say something else, something more. I tried praising, confessing - it … Continue reading Sometimes I don’t know what to say
The other day I came across this quote by Pierre Teilhard in my prayer book: "Above all, trust in the slow work of God. We are quite naturally impatient in everything to reach the end without delay. We would like to skip the intermediate stages. We are impatient of being on the way to something … Continue reading The slow (uncomfortable) work of God