Earlier today I was feeling rather sensitive about life, myself, and joking. I turned to my playful husband and asked, "Will you love and adore me?" "Only if you love and adore yourself." I was a little surprised. I expected him to say, "Of course!" and then tell me how wonderful I am. "Have I … Continue reading Will you love and adore me?
Around September last year, I started reading a book called "Radical Collaboration", which deals with self-awareness and defensiveness in teamwork (and just being with people in general). It has several "testers" to gauge your defensiveness and also your "hot buttons". I was unpleasantly shocked by how defensive I was and how many things I get upset about. … Continue reading In the process of being less defensive, I stopped talking.
This is the summer of stopping. Resting. Being still. After getting married, ending the semester, going on vacation, and all the planning, stress, and energy that went into those 3 things, I suddenly have nothing to do. I'm not taking classes this summer. I'm not working. I'm not planning a big, life-changing event. I'm just … Continue reading Sabbath Summer
Life can get a bit heavy at times. Not only are there bills to pay and theological questions to answer, but there are relationships to keep up with and books to read. To-do lists can escalate to the point where stress is normal and sleep is an odd thing. During these moments it is best … Continue reading The seriousness of life
Sometimes I get confused about the acceptable balance of strength and weakness. I want to deliberately define each strength that I have, to the point of perfection. And in those places where I'm a little shaky I want to push and endure until they're strong too. You see, somehow I got the idea that weakness … Continue reading A lesson in strength
You know those things that we all live with, sometimes avoid and generally let us down? Expectations. We want something to go one way and it goes another. We have a plan and someone deviates. We have a set course and a storm hits. We want one thing and get another. We think we want … Continue reading When you don’t get your way
I've been pondering the idea of wholeness lately. What does it look like to be whole in a broken world? What does peace look like while breathing the air of violence? I don't have any answers to these questions. Just more questions that lead to little rabbit trails that also don't lead to answers. Sometimes … Continue reading Give your face a break